::mending the broken pieces of my life::

mee kolok!!!

recently, i was flying morning flight with Malaysia airlines. as usual,(a frequent traveller wud be bored on board,so normally food serving is the peak of the event la ) i was looking forward towards the breakfast served by the airline as they always provide yummy mummy meals. (of coz at the same time u'll be able to ngorat2 or cuci mata tgk kawaii~~~ stewardess..aduss).btw, they used to have morning nasi lemak yg sgt2 sedap u kno, n my fren told me (i donno wether it is true or not) the nasi lemak cost a fortune. it was like RM40 or something close to that for a single meal.

so that morning, the meal options were between ommelete and sarawak's mee kolok. coincidentally,that nite i was "mengidam" mee kolok, so delightfully i chose mee koloklah. since that airlines never suceed to disappoint me, of coz i'd expect the mee kolok is 'lain dr yg lain'..agik nyaman la in simple words..dengan sudu and garfu di tangan ( mee kolok is best eat with chopstick,i donno y they do not have this common sense..aiyark!!), i opened the container. wah!!!..the mee kolok looked dull la...and where is the soup?.is this some how mee kolok goreng!!..but i was still cool then. with perut yg lapar (as i told my mum,no need to prepare breakfast for me,coz i'm looking forward towards the in flight meal), i tried the so called mee kolok, and to my DISAPPOINTMENT, it was TASTELESS!!!no taste at all!!..merik malu org swk ajak...i was so frustrated.

1. because i was damn hungry

2. because i was 'mengidam' and have high expectation towards that 5 stars airlines services

3. because i am the native of sarawak. i grew up eating mee kolok, and i kno that mee kolok is awesome. everyone who come to visit sarawak never fail to eat that local food and it is the main attraction of tourist. and suddenly, the no 1 malaysia airlines is serving TASTELESS mee kolok, and without doubt it will give bad impression about our local food..

aiyark~~..tolong la mr Idris jala, u are sarawakian also...pls fix this..dont make us ashame with our own food....aiyark~~~

mahathir dulu dan selamanya~~~

i probably not clever enough to speak on political issues of the country, but i do read ,listen and observe a lot that i guess that wud be enough to qualify me to make the judgment of the current scenarios of politics and economics issues and come out with bad conclusions.

i never bothered about it, until lately, whatever that's happening is so damn anoyying that i'll be blind enough not to care about it. i have to be sincere, i'm kinda patriotic guy (ngeh ngeh ngeh),despite my mohawk hair.haha...i recalled,during my school days,when it was the month of 'kemerdekaan', i nearly shed tears when asked to sing patriotic songs..=p..it damn touched me u kno..but due to my machoness, i acted cool. enuff said about that.

neither that i want to critic Pak Lah' s government, nor that i'm supporting Anwar Ibrahim, but today, everything on tv or papers were just like hindi dramas. u never know which side is telling u the truth. however, i dont care who ever will win in long fight,because the real verdict is given by god.so they know it themselves la. the only thing that i'll ask from the government is the stability of the country,the strong state of economy and less controversy made by the politicians.

i've been a great fan of Mahathir's blog recently. www.chedet.com(and of coz i adore him too). i was kinda insulted towards some people who bluntly criticised this old bloke. one of my friend told me, Mahathir should stop criticising the current government,let Pak Lah do his own thing, and focus more on the afterlife.after all, Mahathir was the "zalim" guy upon Anwar imprisonment. to tell u the truth, i'm totally pissed off hearing this. (u dont know how true the story goes,yet u already make the conclusions.)to me, what ever Mahathir is doing now, criticising here and there, it is not for his own sake. never once he get paid for it nor he get the reputation for doing so. in return, people are blaming him,hating him,or talking bad about him (without any sense of respect towards 'org tua') for being a 'nyanyuk ex-PM' regardless of whatever he has done for the country today. kurang asam~~.

WHATEVER he did,he do it for the country. The same thing applies nowadays. he foresees the falling of Malaysia's economy and stability,the split in UMNO/BN,the outcry of the people and the most crucial thing is the lack of love towards Malaysia the Country.THAT IS THE MAIN REASON HE CRITICISED. he fears the country that was fought for by many "pejuang bangsa', built by passionate leaders, maintained and developed by great people in the past will be falling apart. we are not we are today  if it is not because of him and people in the past. (but of coz by god's will also la,but god wont help if we do not work hard kan ). he foresees all the disaster. so he acted before 'nasi menjadi bubur'. he doesnt care if people hate him, if people call him names, but as long as he could save the country, that will be enough for him. the idea of this modern' perjuangan really moved me.

the recent post by TUN Mahathir really reached my heart.it somehow makes the urban teenage like me realize how important it is to protect the country. of coz nowadays no perang2 la. and the article written by Tan Sri Nor Yaakop (the current 2nd finance minister ) about Dr Mahathir on the financial crisis 1997-1998 really wept me.(http://jebatmustdie.wordpress.com/2008/06/05/oh-my-god-is-this-pm-stupid/ )when everyone was senang lenang tidur,makan,enjoy tgk tv, our then PM was working hard to save the country.u shud read the article people..isk isk isk...such a genius and noble act by him.superb!!marvelous!!bravo!!!

so, regardless of wut ppl said about my beloved Tun Dr Mahathir, (kejam ka,nyanyuk ka, tua ka,gila ka,)...i dont give a damn. who cares when this old bloke has proven to the world how good he is in leading small country like Malaysia,ckp2 kosong or keji from dengki people is just like an ant's bite.my support is always with u Dr Mahathir. cheyyyyywah~~~~~~~

mcm nak makan roti bakar telur manis smbil minum white coffee ais

tomorrow got 2 test, n ak x study even a bit.. pale pening..T_T

got 3 projects to submit esok..bridge presentation, (mcm cnfirm fail je deflection).....and another just newly discovered assignment...T___T

i am broke...duit elaun dh guna beli tiket blk..mkn maggi laaa dis month..T_____T

and....for god sake...i miss her..miss her even much more tyme dgr dis one song....T_________T

when life dissapproves.....

        Some said, “life is a long journey, choose the right path and you will come to the desired end”. Others said, ‘life is too short, so live life to the fullest”. Many know exactly what they want in life.

Ironically, I am 21, yet I don’t know what I long in life. I’m lost in the middle of the journey, yet somehow, I don’t know how to get back to the starting line; or maybe its just me that refuse to return to the turning point. I used to be the not-so-complicated-boy –next-door who once has set his eyes upon the finishing line. i knew what I wanted in life, I knew exactly what were my strengths, and most importantly I have pride in my own self.

In the past, I too have lost once. but somewhere along the line, I met few wonderful ppl that to these days I value the most. They pulled me back together; giving me strength to undo some mistakes that I’ve made n gave me some spaces in their live. So I fitted in…

But these years, I lost again. Not to mention how many times literally I fell to the ground. I’ve lost the soul to continue this journey. To me it’s a damn cold long journey and I don’t even see how soon or where it will end. So it freaks me to the hell. I did look where all this hell things have gone wrong. But I cudnt find the exact answer.let alone putting it back together.

Was it because, along the way, I’m losing all the wonderful ppl that I used to have once?

Was it because the search of my own self has not come to its end?

Or was it because, me myself is just a pathetic loser…

So, I just let it be…

I used to believe in the soul of friendship

I used to believe in every cloud has its silver lining

I used to believe in efforts and success

And I used to believe in love and happy ending

But today, I don’t.

Don’t ask me why, because I do not have the answer

However, I hope those feelings that I have in the past, will come back again some days.........

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its 11 in the morning, n i've just woke up from my long,nice comfy sleep in the arms of my honey...(oppss,the last part was only my wild imagination,uwauwuawu.. sorry ustaz ~~..hehe)..

dis morning m quite taken aback of my own lackness of kesedaran since it has been like few weeks i have skipped my 8 o'clock class...

x phm la y my eyes susah sgt nak bkk time2 pg yg gelap, (kini sudah terang, ak adik mu, dan engkau abg---> uish my fav song ni, even b4 dis grup femes cam gempak kat local scene, i dh pnh dgr dah dis song...bangga la siot..thnx to my rumet for always introducing me with indie2 band yg bakal2 gempak)...err back to my point la..

i just cant help from closing back my eyes though my alarm was screaming like  pompuan-nak-beranak...or pontianak-nak-berak...ey..ryhme la those 2 sentences kan...x ksh la..both will do...n after a few times of snoozing, my hand will slowly hit the stop button n there he goes, sleeping happily ever after lps tu...everyday also like that, m quite lethargic la with this feeling of guiltiness..but somehow, esok buat lgi..after that, nyesal lagi..than buat lagi....and up to this peak point, m so used to the guiltiness feeling, so i just let go la...just follow the flow,bak kata org tua2 kan...

last nyte, sambil2 doing my assignment, i, due to kebuhsanan yg tahap moksya,  terdownload AF concert yg plg latest...since ppl always keep talking about it, and among the rumors are ;got old-nearly-dead lady la, big sis of the so called our great singer of the centuryla, anuar zain wannabe la...so due to my high curiousity n of coz sbb nak on par with the others...i donload la...and the result of my so called high curiosity, i ended up watching a bunch of wannabe singers that i tot the level of their singing is sgt2 worst compare to the previous AF...gosh..it was so gross watching them (with all the drama thingy)...i just cannot keep myself from swearing and cursing..sorrila ppl...its the evil part of me yg kluar if i see sumthing unpleasant..x like i wanna curse u ppl...hahah..normally my evil part always tell the truth...plss laa..plsssla....giv us sumthing that worth voting for..(x like m gonna vote anyway, i remember the first and the last i wasted my 50cents worth sms for this kind of show, i was voting for Marsha...tu pon sbb my lil sis fancy her, n now where she stands in the industry)..see, wut a waste kan...

dis few days, m kinda tired jaga hati org...so iwanna have a blissful rest this weekend..starting mlm ni la..esok i dh consider weekend since only got one class left...mcm nak cuti je..ngehngehngeh...

dis few days to come, m looking forward on some upcoming "events"..i guess that wud give me some lights to my dulllife in this desert like place...plus,anyone that havent give my besday present, pls do so, sbb this month pon dh nak abis........

ppl, i really need my motif hidup back...n my life has been so dull since then...

"kenapa ramai graduan mengganggur di malaysia"

i have transportation engineering test in few hours time (5 hours to be exact)  n yet i have not study a thing.. i dunno anything man n i mean it!!!!...damn cuak!!!....now only i cud feel it coz i've blown away the whole semester as i recall i've always been 'transporting' myself to somewhere else time class..i tot that was wat tranportation engineering is all about....[-_-"]~~

but somehow,

-still i woke up at 930 when my alarm was set at 8...when 8 is already too late for someone that dunno anything...bullshit la that alarm

-have a blast  stupid"huhahahah",mkn2 at my rumet's mapley, at the kesedaran today got test, and yesterday was a busy assignment copying day... stupid assignments~~~..

-suppose to have class now, n still i got stuck here when i kno, the lecturer shud be giving some hints for the test...shit!!

-dun even move  a bit from this fuckin" melalaikan laptop though dh taw sendiri bodoh, n br nak ada kesedaran blaja...stupid pringles!!

seee...that is y, nape kat malaysia ramai sgt penganggur, and a lot of building collapse ..bcoz the new era of engineers majority stupid like me..( rsenye like my rumet also for he is now happily rocking dlm blk w/o even a worry about test...wahahahahaha.)...n and keep on blaming others for being extremely bebal...=)

n..

also bcoz menteri that served JKR took more than his own age jadik menteri..no wonder la construction level in malaysia nowadays always got complains... [-_-"]

sigh~~..y in the first place i end up in this stupid course when i kno , somewhere else i cud do better..though i kno my physicz n addmaths were sucks time skul, still i chose engineering and now i am leading my life to disaster. bcoz everyone think jadik engineer will guarantee ur future (esp when u r PETRONAS scholar), jadik engineer will make u rich....wtf!!!go to hell la with those perceptions.that is the mentality of our ppl..esp the 'veterans'..so to those who read this...lets take action by brainwashing our parents b4 u end up like me...no motif hidup...n if u need to torture them like we torture junior during hostel time, DO IT!!..its better to be tortured now, then to sucks ur life later of the day....

i am telling u the truth of life, i'm x like some hypocrite munafik guys that will tell u the beauty of uni life when the truth is, it is not!!..when some ppl will tell u..'hey,look at the bright side man..u can make it thru"...that will only make me laugh in ur face..hahahhaha...like that...=p..the fact of life will always be the fact of life even when u try to be positive...errmm...

shit...its 11 now...study2~~~buat toyol cpt2..that is my solution..u?..